Forgotten narrates a story of feeling trapped. I antagonize, I am irritated and exasperated with myself for allowing situations to prevail. I am holding on, I am grasping onto what I believe in and what I want to achieve. I am fighting with myself suppressing my feelings, allowing myself to be manipulated. I have a total lack of control, nothing is stable, everything is moving, nothing is solid everything is emotionally unsettled.
I am frustrated and feeling isolated. My mobile keeps ringing. Feelings of resentment and helplessness is overwhelming. I feel vulnerable. The mobile phone and social media have become ubiquitous tools in our society. They are unavoidable, it is hard to escape. Sometimes you need to block a persistent caller who won’t leave you alone.
The impact of being online and the necessity to be contactable at all times can be frustrating. The millennial generation are reliant on their mobile phones. They are online engaged in another world, whilst sitting next to you. I have a sense of being ignored, unnoticed. It is often easier to text the boys to get a reply to a question or to gain their attention. The mobile becomes the first thing they touch when they wake and the last thing they read before going to bed.
Territorial and possessive emotions are overwhelming me. I am overcome with pride and sadness. My son is focused, ambitious and committed. He is making huge sacrifices, we all are. Anxiety and apprehension, these feelings will not go away. We drop him to school on his first day, all the parents are asked to leave. The schools estate is bordered with fern leaves. We drive home in silence.
